Chapter 43 – WTF?!

Sasha’s POV


There is one thing I hate about long distance relationships: when you fight it takes forever to resolve the situation. You get cursed out and hung up on. I hadn’t talked to Nef for about a week. Sometime during that week something happened to make her think that I was cheating on her with Nadiya. Literally, I had no clue what the fuck was going on. I called her one day and she was completely livid.

“How could you?” she screamed at me.

“How could I what?”

“You slept with her!”

“Slept with who? What you talking about?”

“You slept with Nadiya!”

“No I didn’t! Why you say that?” If she didn’t want me to be friends with her then she should have said something. She shouldn’t have said the decision was up to me.

There was a lot of back and forth. She hung up on me and I hung up on her. I couldn’t for the life of me figure out how she could think that I would do something like that to her. Had she always thought that I would cheat on her? Did she not trust me from the beginning? She called me a liar, a cheater, a son of a bitch, and every other name she could think of.

At one point my mom walked into my room and took my phone from me. Nef had been crying into the phone. I was trying to get her to listen to me, to believe me when I told her that I had done nothing wrong. I think at one point during the shouting match she broke up with me. I couldn’t get her to believe me. I couldn’t get her to talk to me. I couldn’t get her to do anything other than cry and scream.

I ended up drinking. I drank a lot, to the point where someone had to take me home. I tried calling Nef again but she refused to answer. I hadn’t done anything wrong! I felt hurt and betrayed. I’d done nothing to deserve this.

My dad tried to mediate. My mom told me to forget about her. Lana said that something wasn’t right. Nadiya said that she didn’t know why Nef would or could assume something like this.

”I apologized to her. I’ve been respectful of the two of you, Sasha.”

Day after day. Fight after fight. Nef was bent on the knowledge that I had betrayed her. After someone doubts you and your honest for no apparent reason you start to wonder.

I was out again at another bar when Nadiya came to get me. She told me that my mom had called her and asked that she come and get me. I don’t remember much of that night. I just remember Nadiya putting me into her car and taking me home. I don’t remember much else after that. I just remember being angry. I remember being angry that she would even think that about me. I’d done everything to show her that I loved her.

I woke up to the feeling that I was going to be sick. I barely made it to the bathroom before throwing up violently. When I could stand I realized that I didn’t have any clothes on and when I went back to my room. Nadiya was there. She was in my bed.

Oh my God. Please no. I didn’t. I couldn’t have slept with her. She still had clothes on so I took that as a good sign. I woke her up and told her she had to leave.

”Sasha, what’s wrong?”

”You have to go. Leave now.”

I threw her stuff at her and hurried her out of the door.

”After last night, you’re just going to kick me out.”

”I was drunk and upset. Last night was an accident and it shouldn’t have happened. Fuck I don’t even remember last night.”

I showered, scrubbing my skin until it turned red. She was still dressed so that meant that had to mean that I didn’t sleep with her, right? When my phone rang it was Jesse.

“What the fuck did you do!”

“I do nothing to her. She call me screaming. Say I cheat on her. I not do anything.”

“She called you a few nights ago and Naiya answered your phone.”

“What?” I thought back a few nights. I hadn’t been anywhere other than my bed. “I was at home…I not with Nadiya.”

Every night for the past week or so I’ve been in my bed…and then it hit me. I had gone to bed one night and left my phone in the kitchen. My mother, Nadiya, and her mother had been there. My mom was doing laundry and they had been sitting around talking. I told Jesse what happened and she drug Nef into her room.

“I called you and she said picked up the phone. She told me that she was in your bed.”

“She lie to you. I left my phone in the kitchen. My mom and her mom were talking and she was there. I went to bed alone.”

I couldn’t believe it. Nadiya had lied to Nef. She had lied to me. I checked my call log for the day and time that Nef told me she called and sure enough there was a 7 minute phone call that I didn’t have.

“Oh Sasha. I’m so sorry,” she said. “When I called you and she answered the phone I…I believed what she told me.”

“Nef, I love you. I with you because I want to be. I not with her because I not want her.”

There had to be some reason for Nef to completely lose it like that. I knew her and she knew me. I’ve never lied to her about anything. We’ve been nothing but open and honest to each other. It hurt that she didn’t trust me but now that I knew what happened it made sense. She had called me in the middle of the night and a woman that she knew wanted me answering my phone and telling her that we were together.

If I had been in DC or her in Russia she would have been able to see that Nadiya was lying. I couldn’t be mad at Nef because if the situation had been reversed I would have done the same thing. I call in the middle of the night and some guy tells me that you two are sleeping together…Oh God I would have been homicidal.
It was my fault too. I walked right into it. I had been so concerned with not losing a friend that I almost lost my girlfriend. I believed Nadiya when she said that it was a mistake. Time and time again I had tried to look past obvious problems to keep a friend that I’d had since I was a child.

My dad walked into my room to check on me. I had been pretty out of it last night. I told him what happened between Nef and myself. I told him about what Nadiya had done. It wasn’t long before the story made its way around my family and Lana was calling me saying ”I told you to stay away from her. I told you that she wasn’t trust worthy.” My mother couldn’t believe that Nadiya would do something like that. She said that Nadiya’s such a sweet girl. She’s trust worthy, she’s honest, she’s this, and she’s that.

Nadiya of course denied it but I didn’t believe a word she’d said. She’s lie to me too many times. I’ve trusted her too much. I could only guess that she thought Nef would break up with me and we would cut off all communication. Did she really think that I wouldn’t check my phone log? Did she really think that Nef wouldn’t tell me why she was breaking up with me? Or worse she thought that once Nef blew up for no apparent reason that I would want nothing to do with her? I love Nef too much to just walk away.

”If she really trusted you what was said on the phone shouldn’t have mattered.”

”Nadiya, leave. We’re not friends anymore. I’ll be civil to you because our mothers are friends but I can’t deal with you anymore.”